Sunday, March 15, 2009

漸行漸遠

開始覺得有點不對勁,但到底是哪裏出了問題,卻又不大說得上來。想了很久,總結了幾個要點:

1. 整天周旋於一堆超級A字膊、不時耍賤、極難溝通和合作的人中,曾三番四次中伏,非常疲憊。
2. 不斷重複、花盡心力的幹一些只着重形式的東西,必須經常打醒十二萬分精神提防出錯,那怕只是那麼一點點微不足道的失誤。
3. 圍繞着身邊的討論都是茶餘飯後的是是非非、雞毛蒜皮的事,曾奮力加入,不夠三天,已覺乏味非常,再也提不起勁。

雖然觀察多了,但真正動腦思考的卻不多。沒有吸收多少新知識、接觸新事物,閱讀減少了,甚至想不起上一次到底是在甚麼時候看完一本書,或一齣電影。認真、有價值和深入的討論更是鳳毛麟角。外地旅遊所得的見聞更像是遙不可及。慢慢的,批判思考、多角度分析、創造力……都好像離我越來越遠。

究竟我所選擇的道路是……?
該是時候重整這種input越來越少,但卻要不斷output的生活。

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Poor!

Keep your spirit up!

yvonne said...

thanks!
加油ing

vivien said...

I would say life is full of difficulties and it depends very much on how u view them – whether u view these difficulties as obstacles or u view them as challenges.

I have been drown in a hell for more than 3 months (since my team was started to be attacked on 16 Dec 08) – unreasonable criticisms (personal or team-based), traps (很毒耶…), blames and irresponsible acts and all u can think of – are put on me and my teammates. These 3 months are definitely uneasy.

There is no work-life balance at all and superficially there is no ‘input’ for me and continuously ‘output’ is demanded from me. However, I see this process of being continuously ‘squeezed’ as another way of input. Certainly my EQ has a very great increment.



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